I'm a young guy from Montreal, studied composition, love contemporary music. Big fan of the music of Claude Vivier, and hoping/dreaming of following in his footsteps as a composer.
I've been looking for some intelligent discussion about contemporary music and a certain user referred me to this site.
I might go post this in the composer/performer sub-forum, but kinda want to get it off my chest - the school I studied at and my private teacher was absolutely no good, bad, horrible for me and my creativity. Cruel emphasis on perfect notation at the expense of at all considering me as a human or my ideas - despite the fact that I was mostly self-taught up til then. Made me afraid and shameful of my art, and incredibly timid about approaching musicians and asking for help. By now I expect to be treated with no respect and put down, or at best ignored. The film "Whiplash" really hit home, but without the impossible hollywood ending... now I have all these ideas and cool things I wanna do but hardly any portfolio and I'm not as young as I used to be. Is there any hope for me out there?
(my apologies for the drama, looking for dialogue or a "way out".)