Depression check-list

[vandermolen]

am i a whiingy bitch?

Not in my experience .

[snyprrr]

am i a whiingy bitch?

uh boy, I'm the gift that keeps giving

well then, I guess that answered my question, lol, ... "thanks snyprrr"??



Feeling a bit o decompression here... lots of crappy crap, but I still must remain grateful that

1) not on fire

2) no flies laying eggs in any open wounds

3) no blood shooting out of every pore-afice


Wish I had something "fun" to be grateful for, but, then,

"better is a meal of herbs in solitude with peace, rather than a feast amongst dissemblers"


ahhhh, young love

[arkiv]

Walking in the sun comforts the spirit.

[foxandpeng]

Walking in the sun comforts the spirit.

Walking in the rain can be reflective and comforting too.

I have always appreciated rain on trees, the sounds it makes in puddles and on the ground, and the pitter patter on coats, umbrellas, and roofs, but also the whole sensory experience of being out in it.

[71 dB]

The last 15 years or so have been more or less challenging for me mentally. In 2018 I lost my mother and while 2019 was a better year, the new decade has been crappy as hell: Covid-19, war in Ukraine, inflation and many other smaller things making life more miserable. It all has been a lot to me, because prior to the 2020's I was already struggling mentally.

Suffering can also create positive change and 2023 has felt a positive turning point for me. I have learned to not care about things I have no control over. I have almost stopped following US politics. I hardly even follow Finnish politics/news anymore. It doesn't matter if I follow the news of not. Things will be just as shitty anyway, but at least I can choose to spend my time on more pleasant things such as listening to music! As a very introverted person it is easy for me to just live inside my head. I try to care about only things that matter to me and filter out the rest.

Finland becoming the 31st member state of NATO in April 4, 2023 helped a lot with peace of mind. I have biked more this summer and it has also made me feel better both mentally and physically. I have even inherited recently a lot of money quite unexpectedly from a distant relative! I have re-discovered New Age music. I avoid arguing online with other people (that's why I am a bit absent). I can't change anyone's mind. The solution is to just let other people disagree and instead use my time on things important to me. An important skill in the post factual social media bubble World if you ask me.

Year 2005 version of me wasn't at all ready for the World of 2020's. Of course I thought I was ready for the future, but I was proven wrong and the least 15 years have been a quite a schooling for me. Up to around 2005 the future was always kind and welcoming for me. After that point it began to show more and more of its ugly side and year by year I felt more and more like things are going into the wrong direction in the World. Maybe all people feel like this when getting older? I don't know, because this is my first life I think. I don't remember re-incarnating or any lessons from my previous lives...

Anyway, despite all the crap in the World today, I am feeling much better because all the teachings of the last 15 years or so are coming together...

[vandermolen]

The last 15 years or so have been more or less challenging for me mentally. In 2018 I lost my mother and while 2019 was a better year, the new decade has been crappy as hell: Covid-19, war in Ukraine, inflation and many other smaller things making life more miserable. It all has been a lot to me, because prior to the 2020's I was already struggling mentally.

Suffering can also create positive change and 2023 has felt a positive turning point for me. I have learned to not care about things I have no control over. I have almost stopped following US politics. I hardly even follow Finnish politics/news anymore. It doesn't matter if I follow the news of not. Things will be just as shitty anyway, but at least I can choose to spend my time on more pleasant things such as listening to music! As a very introverted person it is easy for me to just live inside my head. I try to care about only things that matter to me and filter out the rest.

Finland becoming the 31st member state of NATO in April 4, 2023 helped a lot with peace of mind. I have biked more this summer and it has also made me feel better both mentally and physically. I have even inherited recently a lot of money quite unexpectedly from a distant relative! I have re-discovered New Age music. I avoid arguing online with other people (that's why I am a bit absent). I can't change anyone's mind. The solution is to just let other people disagree and instead use my time on things important to me. An important skill in the post factual social media bubble World if you ask me.

Year 2005 version of me wasn't at all ready for the World of 2020's. Of course I thought I was ready for the future, but I was proven wrong and the least 15 years have been a quite a schooling for me. Up to around 2005 the future was always kind and welcoming for me. After that point it began to show more and more of its ugly side and year by year I felt more and more like things are going to the wrong direction in the World. Maybe all people feel like this when getting older? I don't know, because this is my first life I think. I don't remember re-incarnating or any lessons from my previous lives...

Anyway, despite all the crap in the World today, I am feeling much better because all the teachings of the last 15 years or so are coming together...

A most interesting post. Thank you.
I'm not sure what to say but I will repeat what my much missed sister-in-law said to me once, when I was going through a very difficult time in my life:

All strength to you.

[71 dB]

A most interesting post. Thank you.
I'm not sure what to say but I will repeat what my much missed sister-in-law said to me once, when I was going through a very difficult time in my life:

All strength to you.

Well, the last 15 years contains a lot of things I never asked and hoped for. The World in 2023 is very very different from what I imagined it to be in the 90's or even early 2000's. My personality/neurotype makes it easy for me to recognise trends and were things will lead, but I simply knew far too little about the World to make any realistic predictions for the future and as we know future is almost impossible to predict even for the best minds so there is that.

What I have learned is that the advantages in science and technology don't make people smarter. On the contrary, it can open doors into additional rooms of stupidity, hate and ignorance. It is not so much science and technology doing this, but greed exploting them. I totally underestimated greed in the 90's and that's were I went wrong the most in my predictions. Now I am wiser. I thought I was greedy wanting a few hard to find CDs! I am not greedy at all! Elon Musk is greedy wanting to own the whole World and become the dictator of this planet and space in the 100 light years radius!

[Karl Henning]

Very glad you're feeling better, @71 dB 

[71 dB]

Very glad you're feeling better, @71 dB

Thanks Karl! 

[AnotherSpin]

The last 15 years or so have been more or less challenging for me mentally. In 2018 I lost my mother and while 2019 was a better year, the new decade has been crappy as hell: Covid-19, war in Ukraine, inflation and many other smaller things making life more miserable. It all has been a lot to me, because prior to the 2020's I was already struggling mentally.

Suffering can also create positive change and 2023 has felt a positive turning point for me. I have learned to not care about things I have no control over. I have almost stopped following US politics. I hardly even follow Finnish politics/news anymore. It doesn't matter if I follow the news of not. Things will be just as shitty anyway, but at least I can choose to spend my time on more pleasant things such as listening to music! As a very introverted person it is easy for me to just live inside my head. I try to care about only things that matter to me and filter out the rest.

Finland becoming the 31st member state of NATO in April 4, 2023 helped a lot with peace of mind. I have biked more this summer and it has also made me feel better both mentally and physically. I have even inherited recently a lot of money quite unexpectedly from a distant relative! I have re-discovered New Age music. I avoid arguing online with other people (that's why I am a bit absent). I can't change anyone's mind. The solution is to just let other people disagree and instead use my time on things important to me. An important skill in the post factual social media bubble World if you ask me.

Year 2005 version of me wasn't at all ready for the World of 2020's. Of course I thought I was ready for the future, but I was proven wrong and the least 15 years have been a quite a schooling for me. Up to around 2005 the future was always kind and welcoming for me. After that point it began to show more and more of its ugly side and year by year I felt more and more like things are going into the wrong direction in the World. Maybe all people feel like this when getting older? I don't know, because this is my first life I think. I don't remember re-incarnating or any lessons from my previous lives...

Anyway, despite all the crap in the World today, I am feeling much better because all the teachings of the last 15 years or so are coming together...

It's easy to share, harder to get rid of, I know. Okay, what can I say. All troubles are always within the head, nowhere else. The world is perfect, and if it isn't, there's no point in arguing with what is. What is, will be, options are not available. I live in the middle of a war, in a town that can be hit by a missile at any moment of the day or night. How do I not go crazy (if I haven't already)? To live as if the missile has already arrived, there is nothing else. And that goes for everyone in every city. What is -- is, nothing to argue with. Do not mind what's happen, literally, do not mind.

[71 dB]

It's easy to share, harder to get rid of, I know. Okay, what can I say. All troubles are always within the head, nowhere else. The world is perfect, and if it isn't, there's no point in arguing with what is. What is, will be, options are not available. I live in the middle of a war, in a town that can be hit by a missile at any moment of the day or night. How do I not go crazy (if I haven't already)? To live as if the missile has already arrived, there is nothing else. And that goes for everyone in every city. What is -- is, nothing to argue with. Do not mind what's happen, literally, do not mind.

When the war started, I thought Russia tries for a couple of months for "easy victory" and then notice it won't be easy and go away to cut their losses, but no. They keep fighting without gaining anything. I am too stupid to understand how this is good for Russia/Russian oligarchs/Putin himself. Well at least North-Korea is benefitting because they can sell tons of weapons to Russia. Nato benefitted by getting Finland as the new member (and Sweden soon I hope). Military industry benefits from increasing military budgets all over the World. There are certainly winners in this wars, but I don't think Putin himself is among them, is he?

[AnotherSpin]

When the war started, I thought Russia tries for a couple of months for "easy victory" and then notice it won't be easy and go away to cut their losses, but no. They keep fighting without gaining anything. I am too stupid to understand how this is good for Russia/Russian oligarchs/Putin himself. Well at least North-Korea is benefitting because they can sell tons of weapons to Russia. Nato benefitted by getting Finland as the new member (and Sweden soon I hope). Military industry benefits from increasing military budgets all over the World. There are certainly winners in this wars, but I don't think Putin himself is among them, is he?

I do not know. I am happy my kids are far away from war.

[Spotted Horses]

When the war started, I thought Russia tries for a couple of months for "easy victory" and then notice it won't be easy and go away to cut their losses, but no. They keep fighting without gaining anything. I am too stupid to understand how this is good for Russia/Russian oligarchs/Putin himself. Well at least North-Korea is benefitting because they can sell tons of weapons to Russia. Nato benefitted by getting Finland as the new member (and Sweden soon I hope). Military industry benefits from increasing military budgets all over the World. There are certainly winners in this wars, but I don't think Putin himself is among them, is he?

Dictators that lose wars do not typically have good outcomes. Stalemate allows him to maintain his position. Capitulation doesn't. The best option may be to offer him a face saving exit.

[71 dB]

Dictators that loose wars do not typically have good outcomes. Stalemate allows him to maintain his position. Capitulation doesn't. The best option may be to offer him a face saving exit.

In peace nobody loses wars.

[71 dB]

I do not know. I am happy my kids are far away from war.

Well that's good to hear. My father (b. 1938) was in Sweden in a foster family when he was very young and Finland had to fight against the Soviet Union. My late mother was born in 1945 after the continuation war.

[Karl Henning]

In peace nobody loses wars.

Clearly, Putin is no peacenik.

[AnotherSpin]

Well that's good to hear. My father (b. 1938) was in Sweden in a foster family when he was very young and Finland had to fight against the Soviet Union. My late mother was born in 1945 after the continuation war.

Finland is highly respected in Ukraine. A small country of brave people who stood up against the horde.

[AnotherSpin]

Dictators that lose wars do not typically have good outcomes. Stalemate allows him to maintain his position. Capitulation doesn't. The best option may be to offer him a face saving exit.

One must have thought that Hitler or Mussolini should be given the opportunity to save face. Calm down, Ukraine will kill the fucker, with or without Western arms.