Sean's skewed life

[Sean]

Born 1969.

Primary school 1974-81: was doing really well until about seven when was drawing a tree one day the teacher asked me to do something with it without explaining properly. From then on hated the school with a special vengance that I only understood years later- came to see that many other people's minds work in terms of patterns or normative systems whereas mine just works in terms of understanding, and if this isn't available I have difficulties, the tree being one of the first examples.

Secondary school 1981-7: had been in such deep trouble up to then by setting my own standards and asking why on earth we were being required to attend to such dull drivel and filth totally irrelevant to our lives that I was forced to withdraw into myself somewhat, from being a very outgoing person with lively ideas.

Construction company 1988-94: good life experience as manager in small business, dealing with wide range of tasks and working with nice Indian girl who would have married me.

Also tried to meet girls in bars and clubs. almost total failure. Every girl I ever took an interest in was interested in me, but I wasn't seeing how to proceed.

1994-7: philosophy bachelors degree. Had little sense of the future and the need either to see this as a route to an academic career in a university or to have combined it with something more vocational.

1998-9: spent two years being unwell due to overwork in the degree, and doing a range of simple jobs.

1999-2000: music masters degree, taught by characters from elite universities who couldn't tolerate at all the idea that someone from the Midlands could think, and certainly not that they could be familiar with their little corner of the repertory they'd studied and which gave them a silly identity. Their aversion to me went to the core of their souls and after the first half-hour cheese and wine gathering I had to keep all my enthusiasm and knowledge to myself if I was going to get the degree. Psychology is in everything.

2000-01: international studies diploma, one of the blackest times, began with on a computing course but was so badly taught had to switch, providing a useless further qualification and wasting my time. Also beautiful but quiet Bulgarian girl in the house liked me, but too stupid to do anything about it, resting on my mind heavily.

2002-03: teaching course, mostly more rubbish- teaching anything is easy and can't be taught, if you can see the student's point of view. Was doing so well that the university music department gave me lecturing to third year undergraduates in Boulez, Messiaen and post war music. The lecturer though then hated me so much, being a better speaker and his intellectual superior, that he deliberately failed my final observation and altered my other grades so I wouldn't be awarded the qualification.

2003-08: cover teaching work in many schools- little responsibility and fairly well paid.

I live alone and cheaply, trying to reconcile what I've done and failed to do. Both my love and vocational lives are unsatisfactory: I've listened to bizare quantities of music, done travel in many regions, taken an interest in Indian philosophy and other subjects, but emotionally and financially it seems I could have achieved rather more, in, I think, better circumstances.

The characters of Pyramus in A Midsummer night's dream, Sg Howie in The Wicker Man and Darth Vader in Star Wars unfortunately resonate with me...

[MN Dave]

Have we been asked to post our bios?

[karlhenning]

. . . until about seven when was drawing a tree one day the teacher asked me to do something with it without explaining properly. From then on hated the school with a special vengance that I only understood years later . . . .

It's high time you got over this, Sean.

[greg]

2002-03: teaching course, mostly more rubbish- teaching anything is easy and can't be taught, if you can see the student's point of view. Was doing so well that the university music department gave me lecturing to third year undergraduates in Boulez, Messiaen and post war music. The lecturer though then hated me so much, being a better speaker and his intellectual superior, that he deliberately failed my final observation and altered my other grades so I wouldn't be awarded the qualification.

wow, that sounds fun 

[Harry]

Well, I do not know what goal you had in mind posting this, but the New members thread would have been a better place to post this in......
Your life was not to bad, a beautiful Indian and Bulgarian girl, stupid, granted,..... interested in you for prospective entanglements is something to be proud about right?

[springrite]

Got some attention.

Mission accomplished.

[karlhenning]

Their aversion to me went to the core of their souls . . . .

Sean lives even for this exaggeration.  Their indifference would wilt him.

[greg]

i somehow don't think he would've posted his bio if he ended up getting married to the Indian or Bulgarian girl.....

[JoshLilly]

I have a bad feeling that we'll be seeing this creepy message board post again. In a few months. In the news. In a story involving this guy and a clock tower.

They hate you. They really do. You suspect they lie awake at night, seething with loathing toward you? Hell, who doesn't? It's why I didn't get enough sleep last night. When I wake up in the morning, my first thought is: "How can I stick it to that Sean guy who posts on that music message board?" I can only imagine what those who've laid eyes on you in person think. They probably all have stomach ulcers in the shape of your face. It's not that they don't appreciate your intellectual superiority, it's that they are jealous. Yes, jealous! They all want to ruin you. You can read their blog entries on www.ihatesean.com  It's their fault that your life seems screwed up. They hate you for what you could have been, for what you could have accomplished. Those other college students, do you think they actually resumed classes when you left? No, they had anti-Sean meetings at those wine&cheese parties. To this day. I've attended a few myself.

[lukeottevanger]

...1999-2000: music masters degree, taught by characters from elite universities who couldn't tollerate at all the idea that someone from the Midlands could think, and certainly not that they could be familiar with their little corner of the repertory they'd studied and which gave them a silly identity....

You know, Sean, I think it is just possible that you are making the weeniest little assumptions here - projecting your own neuroses and persecution complexes onto others. I speak as one also from the Midlands (Leicester) who was also 'taught by characters from elite universities' but who never felt the least hint of lack of toleration.

[Sean]

Okay Luke.

I feel that unsettling people is one of my great gifts though.

[springrite]

Okay Luke.

I feel that unsettling people is one of my great gifts though.

Not nearly as great as your gift of unsettling yourself.

[karlhenning]

I feel that unsettling people is one of my great gifts though.

Presumptuous git.

[Harry]

O, I think Sean has a outgoing and interesting personality, and somehow I think he had, or has, a wonderfully adventurous life.
If only 50% would be true, its a amazing resume, alltogether.

[lukeottevanger]

Not nearly as great as your gift of unsettling yourself.

Reading through Sean's list of self-diagnosed tragedies, I think this may well be true:

[(poco) Sforzando]

Those other college students, do you think they actually resumed classes when you left? No, they had anti-Sean meetings at those wine&cheese parties. To this day. I've attended a few myself.

I'm holding one at my home next month. Would any of you like to come? After hors d'oeuvres including croque Sean and garlic Sean with prosciutto, along with my special Sean on the rocks cocktail, the menu will include cream of Sean soup, braised Sean bourguignon in red wine sauce garnished with pommes Sean, salade Sean, and Sean soufflé au chocolat with crème anglaise. The after-dinner entertainment will include a reading of Sean's most beloved posts, followed by a midnight burning of same where we all gather in a witches' circle dressed in cowls, stick voodoo dolls of Sean with pins, and mutter jealous imprecations, all to the accompaniment of the Joie du sang des etoiles from Messiaen's Turangalila Symphony. Assorted Bulgarian, Thai, and Indian maidens will add local color to the event, and more.

Price: $2000 per person, payable in advance. Dinner only without a maiden: $250. Space is limited, so act fast.

[Harry]

I'm holding one at my home next month. Would any of you like to come? After hors d'oeuvres including croque Sean and garlic Sean with prosciutto, along with my special Sean on the rocks cocktail, the menu will include cream of Sean soup, braised Sean bourguignon in red wine sauce garnished with pommes Sean, salade Sean, and Sean soufflé au chocolat with crème anglaise. The after-dinner entertainment will include a reading of Sean's most beloved posts, followed by a midnight burning of same where we all gather in a witches' circle dressed in cowls, stick voodoo dolls of Sean with pins, and mutter jealous imprecations, all to the accompaniment of the Joie du sang des etoiles from Messiaen's Turangalila Symphony. Assorted Bulgarian, Thai, and Indian maidens will add local color to the event, and more.

Price: $2000 per person, payable in advance. Dinner only without a maiden: $250. Space is limited, so act fast.

I take the maidens and the food and pay 500,-

[(poco) Sforzando]

I take the maidens and the food and pay 500,-

The choicest maidens are the more expensive.

[Harry]

The choicest maidens are the more expensive.

Let me see the merchandize first then!

[johnQpublic]

Primary school 1974-81: was doing really well until about seven when was drawing a tree one day the teacher asked me to do something with it without explaining properly. 

Gee, sounds like a typical music composition lesson.