Beethoven, Schiller and Nietzsche

[Florestan]

It would be a nice exercise for you to read Nietzsche closely and refute him point by point (to the strongest degree). Put his work to your test. Nietzsche would like that, he wants a strong enemy.

I've already done that with Ecce homo and Beyond Good and Evil. I won't waste my time on him anymore.

Brain won't improve, I hope to slow down further impairment. I don't know the exact cause, so indeed we need to figure that out. I don't feel depressed. I still can listen to music, go outside, garden and, for my personal achievement, creativity and happiness, paint.

That's very good, but seriously: if you can't concentrate on reading anymore, no matter whether Nietzsche, a newspaper article or Agatha Christie, then please go see a specialist asap.


EDIT: I like your paintings a lot!

[Henk]

I've already done that with Ecce homo and Beyond Good and Evil. I won't waste my time on him anymore.

That's very good, but seriously: if you can't concentrate on reading anymore, no matter whether Nietzsche, a newspaper article or Agatha Christie, then please go see a specialist asap.


EDIT: I like your paintings a lot!

Thx!

I'm already in treatment. I have a schizo-affective disorder. So it might be the disease, it might be caused my medicine because of side-effects, it might be caused by chronic inflammation of the brain because of the disease, it might be because of having read too much difficult books, it might be caused by having absorbed too much information reading books, it might be a different disease. Probably a combination of some of those things.

It seems my concentration is impaired due to my disease and chronic inflammation. When I then persist in reading, I think it affects my brain badly (more stress and inflammation) and my brain condition deterriorates. This happens some times, at other times I didn't have much difficulty. But now, even if I take rest, my brain doesn't process reading books.

A company is developing a medicine to improve cognitive functioning in patients with schizophrenia. Maybe I can take part in the trials, but I need to find out how to apply.

https://www.kynexistx.com/

[Florestan]

I'm already in treatment  I have a schizo-affective disorder.

All my best wishes to you, Henk! And if reading Nietzsche makes you feel better, more power to you! Whatever works for you is good!

[Henk]

All my best wishes to you, Henk! And if reading Nietzsche makes you feel better, more power to you! Whatever works for you is good!

Thanks.

Nietzsche and Irigaray are my favourites. Irigaray is a woman. It balances out nicely. She also wrote a book about how she relates to Nietzsche. I would have wanted to read more of her. Her newest book 'The Mediation of Touch' (2024) lays on my table, I think it's her magnum opus (she already has retired so that's quite admirable).

[Henk]

All my best wishes to you, Henk! And if reading Nietzsche makes you feel better, more power to you! Whatever works for you is good!

Concentration is back quite suddenly. Strange. I played some brain games and took rest nearly a week, might have done wonders. I won't read any fiction anymore out of caution, just philosophy and a few books on logic and critical thinking, so specializing.

Thanks again for your support.

[DavidW]

Concentration is back quite suddenly. Strange. I played some brain games and took rest nearly a week, might have done wonders. I won't read any fiction anymore out of caution, just philosophy and a few books on logic and critical thinking, so specializing.

Thanks again for your support.

That is great to hear. I didn't say anything but I know that the fear that it is permanent is worse than the problem itself. But neuroplasticity is a wonderful thing!

[Henk]

That is great to hear. I didn't say anything but I know that the fear that it is permanent is worse than the problem itself. But neuroplasticity is a wonderful thing!

Very true

[Henk]

@DavidW @Florestan Didn't take long, can't concentrate now.
Should revise my daily life. Focus on painting, live according to that vocation. That's no regress, it might be a much better plan.

[Florestan]

@DavidW @Florestan Didn't take long, can't concentrate now.
Should revise my daily life. Focus on painting, live according to that vocation. That's no regress, it might be a much better plan.

Indeed, looks like painting might have a cathartic effect on you.

Your paintings look rather turbulent to me but their color scheme is bright and sunny instead of dark and gloomy --- and this makes them rather pleasant than disturbing. I quite like them. Keep them coming.

As for not being able to concentrate on reading, it might just be a passing phase. Honestly, this summer I listened to much less music, and read much less books, than it's usual for me --- I guess I had a burn out and expect a return to normal levels soon.

All the best and take care!

 

[Henk]

Indeed, looks like painting might have a cathartic effect on you.

Your paintings look rather turbulent to me but their color scheme is bright and sunny instead of dark and gloomy --- and this makes them rather pleasant than disturbing. I quite like them. Keep them coming.

As for not being able to concentrate on reading, it might just be a passing phase. Honestly, this summer I listened to much less music, and read much less books, than it's usual for me --- I guess I had a burn out and expect a return to normal levels soon.

All the best and take care!

 

Cathartic for sure. I need that intermittence of creative outburst living a sober, poor life. After painting, enjoying my product, I feel so nice for some limited time, the catharic emotion.